Welcoming the new year of 2009!

Tomorrow will be the last day in 2008! The time passing by so so so so DAMN FAST! Wrinkles~ Oppss! =)

The last day...how would it be?? Parties?? Or..... just a normal gathering to welcome the brand new year?

For me, how could i welcoming the new year without celebration???!!!!!

OH yea! IT'S PARTY TIME!!! :)

For the past celebration, the Christmas eve, it was great for me! =)

And one thing about that night,... i was busy to go in and out to buy all the stuff and have to help to make drinks, foods, and others! Till i couldn't got enough time to get myself change! Aiks! :P

Anyway...

Let's see some of the pictures on that holy night...

(Before the dinner) This is the main table..

Before the dinner starts...



2nd table..

3rd table...

Colorful balls... lol...

Our cacat's Christmas Tree.. hehe

We're the poser!!!! HAHA


i like this pic!! (From left, Michelle, i, Shan, Alby, & Freda)

(From left, Collin, Alby, i, Pau, Nicholas, Galvin (GreenShirt), Edmund.)


Mich and i...

Swt~ Drama kings and queens.....! :)

Oppss! =)

Besides that.... i got my Christmas Presents!!!!!!!!!! haha!!

This is the one that i love the most...

(i love others too! it's just that it's from someone special.. hehe)

Let's take a look!! hehe...

Cute? haha.. i named it ''DD'' ! :)

Little DD...

=)

Hugs...

Posing with DD.... :)

Okay! that's all at the moment.. more to come and looking forward how would my new year eve's celebration gonna be? hehe.. Would ''YOU'' be here with me? hehe

Wait and see.....

Love,

Marcus

P/S: Happy New Year to Everyone! =)

So So Day~

Actually reading other people's blogs are quite interesting for me!
Just finished reading one of my friend's blog. i was curious what would he write in his blog?? and i don't even knw that HE HAS A BLOG! lol....

The last contents that i saw was about 'Friend Relationship' ! Seems like everyone is using the so called 'indirectly' way to release their dissatisfaction! So am i... hehe..

For me, friends are actually the best companian. But you have to act smart all the time!! Because not everyone could be trusted. Some will be soooo good to you, it's because they wanted something from you! And some will be good to you, it's because they are really wanted to be good to you. LOL... :P

Anyway, if your friends are back-stabbers... emm... what to do? there's nothing that we could prevent! Right? Just be yourself and let third part to be judge.

Besides yourself, your TRUTH friend(s) is/are actually the person who know you well. Coz certain things that you couldn't see by yourself. But them. :)

That's just a small part of my point of view about friends...
Damn tired and sleepy.... want to sleep now......


By the way, my friends.. wish you guys luck!! hehe...


Good Night~
Hugs......


p/s: the ways for me to conquer about those troubles of Friend Relationship are.............. NOT TO THINK SO MUCH! JUST BE MYSELF ! IF THEY DON'T LIKE ME.... JUST F**K OFF!!!!! And be Happy~ That's me! hehe :)


and i will try to think other happy things... like....... this!!




PARIS !!!! i'm coming soon! hehe..... :)




Nite nite~ ^^

What a ''HAPPY'' birthday!

Wow! Yesterday's birthday celebration just can use a word to describe.. '' WOW!!''

Got an unexpected number of wishes! Until now, got and getting over 250 birthday wishes thru E-mails, Web-Pages, Profiles, SMS, Calls, and others! Touching!!! hehe...

Thanks you guys so much for the wishes and those lovely presents.... FRIENDS~


Muacksssss!!
Hugs..........


Luv,
Marcus =)

Happy Birthday 2008

Received over 100 birthday wishes from my FRIENDS thru E-mails, SMS, calls, Web-Page, and others. Thanks guys..!
Just feelings thankful to have FRIENDS!
Thanks for everything!

Hugs and kisses..


Luv,
Marcus


** Happy birthday to myself~ ^^ **

Happy 2nd Monthsary! & Happy b'day to myself on 6th Dec!

觉得爱情其实好像。。有时在拍电视剧，有时却在拍电影。
无论是电影还是电视剧，自己都会是戏中的主角。
在之前的戏里，我一向来都会是演一个很倔强，很坚强，从来不会被别人伤害自己感情的角色。可是，正在拍摄的这一部，我却是一个体弱多病，内心脆弱，很敏感的角色。
肯定没有资格去争夺最佳主角了。

之前的我，真的受够了被出卖的滋味。
所以，一直都很害怕会再次享用三人的烛光晚餐。
简单的说，就是恶梦！
有谁会允许把自己的无价宝，公开给人们分享呢？
你？又或者是你？相信结果，会是没有人。

以前觉得 ' 爱情让人受尽委屈 ' 这句话很好笑。可是，领悟过了。
发现，对！爱情真的会让人受委屈。
可是这次，又会是怎样的爱情呢？

一直都觉得，幸福其实离自己不远。可是，到现在都还是个疑问。
朋友们经常都会告诉我，其实幸福，单方面的去追逐是没可能得到的。
幸福，是要两人一起去寻找的。
你觉得呢？

有时侯，时间往往都会是很多人的好朋友。因为，
时间，能让人忘记一切不开心的。
时间，能让人寻找到真爱。
时间，还可以被人们利用，成为借口！
那，你说时间是不是很多人的好朋友？

对我来说，时间，我不大喜欢它。
不想说出原因。

其实啊，我每天都在反复地检讨自己。
到底，我在做的是对还是错？还是，我做得不够好吗？
但却在另一方面，害怕从前的恶梦再次重演！
觉得自己好傻哦！太敏感了！一直都在胡思乱想！
真的不想再这样下去了！！
因为我也很累。。很累。。
给我一点安全感好吗？再多加一点点的关心。
那就够了。真的够了。
我只是想要一次开心的度过我的生日。

.... 可以吗？


p/s: missing you..

Your LOVE to me is the greatest gift of all..

Please.. LOVE me more than i do.



I LOVE YOU.. YES, i do!

我又怎么啦？

为什么当所有人都很开心的时候，我发觉只有我是伤心的那一位。
累的感觉又来了，心灵再次不正常了。
突然间，觉得所有的伴侣都很幸福，很快乐。
我真的很羡慕。真的。
我又怎么啦？！！怎么又再哭了？怎么啦？
又在害怕？到底是怎么了？

难道我做得不够好吗？

我错了..

我想是我做错了。爱一个人，真的很不应该去怀疑他所做的一切一切。 是我错了。我每一分钟每一秒都在想着他。在我们还没在一起之前，他已经跟我说过，他会是一个很纳闷的人。他不是没关心我，而是他用了另外一种方式来疼爱，关心。这一次，是我错了。我真的觉得我太爱他了。所以真的真的很怕会失去他。一直不断地对自己说，就算他真的在外面有别人，那又能算什么呢？我只要做好我自己的本份，全心全意地去爱他，就好了。现在是凌晨五点半了，我真的好想好想他。如果你在看着这片blog，我想告诉你，我以后都不会好像昨天那样问你，还有，对不起。。我真的好想你。我爱你。以后都别吵架了，好吗？还有，你以后做什么事，我都不会再干涉了。每次想你的时候，我只会发个短讯给你。就算没回我，我没事的。就算再担心，我不会再多想了。就算好想每天都跟你在一起，我知道你忙，我会习惯的。真的会。

拥有一段没有回应的爱情，我，很怕..很怕..

其实，想象中，我该是一个很幸福的人。对吗？我不断地在问我自己。

心里一直都好想好想知道一个答案，可是那问题始终都没那勇气去开口提问。

' 你到底爱我吗？'

好像是一个好傻好无知的问题。可是这问题的答案，往往就是很多人都很想知道的。可是，就是缺乏那股勇气去提问。我,.. 也不例外。这... 对吗？

我真的很怕...很怕..

昨晚.. 从来都没那么担心过一个人。就连我自己都没这么担心过我自己。

和你在一起的时候，你喜欢做的，就算我不喜欢，我也会很自然地变成喜欢。因为你，我不断努力地去改变我自己。我真的真的很不想这一切换来的只是一厢情愿。

写着地.. .. 我的mp3跳到了这一首大马歌手 - 罗忆诗的< 别再哭了 >。突然间，' 那' 一种感觉来了。


不敢再多想了.. 有你就好。

My First Birthday Present! LOVE it so much!!!! =)

6th of December is my actual birthday. But i've got my FIRST birthday present today! hehe..

Today, a whole day went out with my darling.

We had been to GreenBox Karaoke, Sg.Wang, GSCinema, Times Square, Tepanyaki, Ah Yip Leng Tong, Low Yat Plaza, and more!!! . hehe..

After we finished the karaoke session, my darling brought me to somewhere and bought me a ring!!! (a pair, for both of us) hehe... I was really really surprise and glad! :)

Lets see........

this is my lovely present.... =)

my ugly hand.. but the ring is nice..! hehe

Wahahhahah.... love it so much! :)

What am i suppose to say..?

就算心里再痛苦，心灵再创伤，表情都依然挂着微笑，而不想影响别人的心情。那人，大概就是我吧。

最近，实在有太多太多不想发生的事情围绕着我。好烦好烦！

可是，也应该是发生后，我才会更加珍惜。
啊！！！ 好烦啊！！！！

也许是我太天真，相信 ''只要付出，就会有收获。''

收获？在哪？到了吗？

其实，我从来都没有期望能得到什么收获。

只是...
有你就已够了。

i'm tired.. i'm tired of being who i am.

What's happening on me? I keep wondering why again and again.

For my own decision. This time. i think it's right. It's the time for me to breathe again. To feels the brand new me, to become stronger, and to become a better person.

Everyone is looking down on me. (for certain ppl) i knew it.

It's just like whatever stuff that i've done or whatever that i'm doing are WRONG! those making me crazy and confused!

At this age, problems comes and goes..

I got my own troubles. It's all so damn bothered! Pain killer couldn't help much.

Keep releasing/expressing to others. i know its useless. the facts are still here. but, just wanna express out to feeling better.

Where are you? When you're needed. but where are you? You're my only lover, but why ended up my friend with me at the very moment that i needs you?


30mins before i've started to write this blog.
I've just got myself out from frightening!!!

10:30pm at a so called 'friend' 's place. Waiting my another friend inside the car. As she said just take something only. okay, fine.

11pm, still waiting. Received calls and SMS from lover and mom. Got scolded. okay, never mind. it's okay..

11:15pm, still waiting. Finally received her called, said that ''she is COMING ''! okay! i was like, ''wow! finally!''

11:35pm, still waiting.

11:40pm, decided to pass back the car key to her and take taxi home.

11:45pm, walked out of the private apartment. No taxi at all !

11:50pm, walking out to the main road while still looking for taxi. (All the small roads are damn dark and lots of dogs! bout 7-8 dogs barked at me! I was scared! So scared! I was praying for myself. and hope that a taxi will appear in front of me! i miss someone that time! but damn disappointed on someone at the same time! )

11:55pm, thanks god! i got a taxi!

12:15am, finally reached my place.

Why? Why still never ever change? WHY??

And for myself.
What's happening again? WHAT A MESS!!!!!!!! i am RUINING my own life!!!!
isit my own problems? or what? pls tell me! i'm damn confusing right now! Who am i? i 'm lost.
I AM TOTALLY LOST !!!!


And for another 'you'! You're the most important person in my life. As everytime when i'm praying.
YOU!, mom, sis and bro would be the first that i praying for good in health and luck.
But, this is how you treated me. should i say THANKS for that?

Again, at my age. Problems comes and goes. I'm not a little child ANYMORE. Live well and happy. Everyone should deserve it. But, not everyone has it.
Sometimes i would just rather to be proud of myself because i'm an understading person, but not proud of myself because of YOU! NOT AT ALL !

Speechless day..

又另一个情绪化的一天。

最近觉得自己好像变了另一个人。好像变回几年前那一阵子的我，对人的感受又冷又淡，整个人成了冷血动物。

我还记得几年前的那一次，我突然变成了冷血动物。身边的朋友都很担心我，关心我，甚至还问我到底发生了什么事？为什么突然会变成那样？大家都觉得我好奇怪。

酱多年来，有四句话是一直都在我脑袋里，那是… “人很自然地会接受。 但，我们也应该得学会如何拒绝。” ， “不是每一个人都是可信的。即使是你身边对你最好的人，他们也会有出卖你的可能。”。

可能是因为我经历了很多很多…愉快的，不愉快的； 幸运，不幸运的; 辛苦，伤感，想发生，不想发生的…统统都在我十五岁之前经历过了。所以， 那四句话的含义…我领悟过了。就是因为曾经被利用，我学会了拒绝。就是因为曾经被出卖，我学会了提防。甚至学会了用感觉来看透人心，我…学会了做人。

我好累…好累。

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Wahseh!!! 5:30am! but still can't get into my dream! swt!

糟糕了！已经是凌晨五点半了啦！可是，还是睡不着！所以，第一件想做的事就是... 写Blog 咯～！haha 太爱部落格了！:p

突然间想到一些朋友之间的问题。
其实，当一对好友大吵之后的感情会不会比之前来得更好呢？还是，彼此都在很 ＇装着地＇迁就着对方？现实演员吗？ Sigh..

不知道！不知道！就好像这几天，对着他的时候总是有点不自在的感觉。好像没了之前的那种感觉，找不回了。其实我还是有点混乱，没有一点头绪叻！还是需要继续酱下去？又或许是我自己想太多了吧？？ 乱！！！
不过我真的希望他已改变了自己，不会再是那以前的他就好了。怎么说，他的本性是不错的。那就当是我自己想太多咯～！哈哈

要睡了，再想下去／再不睡，给 '某某人' 知道就被骂咯！haha
好想我的他哦！:p


晚安! (还是早安比较适当吧？hehe)

6:03am =)

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Happy Monthsary to me and ''YOU''!! And Happy 'Obama''s day!! =)

刚刚才跟我一位已移民到美国的朋友聊过了一个小时半的电话。哇！他移民了已经有两个月多了！时间真的过得很快...很快.. 好想念他哦～ 在他移民之前我们几乎每天都会混在一起的！突然间飞到那么远...真的会不舍得，还会有点不习惯。不过，他走了对他也有很大的帮助！至少他现在活得开心咯～ haha

说回我的。
之前到现在，都一只有人在问我是怎么入行的呢？相信很多人看见我的样子都会很不认同我的职业。告诉你们，就连我自己都不敢相信！所以，你们觉得奇怪是正常的！hehe

这是我之前的一个blog...

'' 不知道为什么，最近的心情都好像怪怪的~ 身边越来越多小人！
不断地在觉得自己在模特界这行呆不久。也觉得这一行根本就不属于我一个这样的人。 每当身边的一些朋友知道我是兼职模特，他们都会用一些鄙视的眼神来上下的打量我！这是什么？什么意思？什么态度啊？甚至还有些所谓的好友在背后说我没那样的资格。
我知道自己的好与坏。这根本不需要别人操心。其实我不是因为闲言闲语而放弃这事业。是因为，四年前，在我知道自己成功的被栽选为广告模特的时候。在想，凭我这个样貌入选？‘这是个局吗？不要玩啦！’我当时就是酱想。

六年前，拍了本地最长篇电视剧《己子当归》。开始受到一些人的注意。还记得当时是参演剧里的其中一小个角色。当时的我，我觉得自己还不会真正的打扮！幸好有化妆师，服装师还有前辈们的指导，慢慢的。。自己好像变得‘不一样’了！呵呵~

大概两年后，加入了某某的一间健身中心。在那里遇见了一位知名的某某模特儿，开始闲聊了起来。在那段闲聊当中，没想过有了另一个开始。某某模特儿介绍了一间某某的模特儿公司给我。叫我去面试。我去了。

可能是因为我是运动员的关系，拍了人生当中的第一支‘运动鞋’的电视广告。开始了我在这行的发展。过后接二连三的都会被广告商叫去面试。有成功的，当然还有失败的。呵呵~

应该是市场的需求越来越高吧~大概一年多过后，我就很少接到经纪人的电话。当时身为大学生的我，没再去想这一行了。在想，就好好的把书念好算了！怎么说，我也曾经拥有啊！=）

大概几个月后，出乎意料的！再次接到我经纪人的电话，说有广告商叫我去面试！当时的心情实在不知道要如何形容。不是开心也不算是不开心吧！我去了这次的面试 —- 失败。但却被相中了成为头发设计模特(hair model/hair show model)。又另一个开始…… （天在作弄我吗？）

直到现在，排徊本地和新加坡两地做秀 （show）。虽然累，但觉得很庆幸！因为凭我这幅样貌和酱的高度还能生存在这圈子，实在谢天谢地了！hehe

突然说起了一大堆东西，希望大家能够对我有多点的了解哦~
不需要在我背后说我这不好那不好的！要就在我面前说，说给我听。我是个很喜欢接受大众意见的人。有意见，人，才会不停求进。所以，欢迎你！

记得，别做小人噢~ 呵呵~ ''

p/s: missing you! ;)


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又是无聊的一天～

不知道这几天吃错了什么，就是一直上厕所！好辛苦哦～！:(

昨晚把车子拿去维修了，所以，我想这几天也会呆在家里无所事事吧！朋友们快点来找我呀！haizz

除了容祖儿，我最近爱上了另外一把歌声 - 谢安琪。收入了在他的最新专辑《Binary》里的 “囍帖街”和“十字架”是我最近的“饮歌”！hehe

谢安琪有自我的一套音乐态度，继2007年“钟无艳”成为不少音乐颁奖典礼的金曲后，2008年以二元素方式《Binary》带来十首精彩的歌曲，又把每首歌词带出两面意思，以人气实力好声音精心泡制最完美的音乐。由 Eric Kwok作曲和黄伟文填词的主打歌“囍帖街”，歌词道出香港湾仔面临的迁拆或重建利东街的命运与爱情婚姻观。接力主打“17度”和TVB电视剧《师奶股神》主题曲“十优生”也是强烈推荐之作。


这就是最近在我mp3里的新作品！希望大家也会喜欢咯！;)

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I'm BACK!!! ;)

自从我将近两年的blog被删除后，相隔了差不多已有半年的时间了！好想blog的我... 终于 '回来啦!!' o喜o喜 ～

今天其实没什么特别.. 只是呆在家里无所事事地！=.=''

今天下午终于下雨啦！已经有五，六天都没下雨了！就快热死之际幸好今天下雨咯！好好睡哦～！！哈哈！说起来.. 今天其实还瞒无聊的! hehe

刚刚我姐去拿了他的新车，家里又增添多一部汽车. (不知道我有没有机会去试试他的新车呢？) haha

无论如何，家里多一部车，怎样都比缺车还来得好咯～ ;)

P/S: 今天就暂时写到这里，要出去了！ (今天没什么联络到他.. 好想他叻!) :'(

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